Bimbotic Bird Hater!

Ramblings of a randomness junkie

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Jerks= Guys!

Had one of the worst nights of my life...wait it was actually quite amusing now that I replay it in my mind. Though...i Am very exhausted now...this account may seem incoherent...but bear with me. Was just lambasted for being naive and idealistic. Mr A (identity to be withheld) and I had a huge fight...yes you can see that. He was saying that I was not realistic for wanting to preserve my virginity till I met the right guy. Also, I was dumb for thinking that guys would accept sex only much later in a relationship. In other words...I should give it to them whenever they wanted. He also berated me for stupidly differentiating 'making love' and a 'nice hard bang'. To him, there's no diff between those is sex. And he also said that sex and love do not necessarily complement each other hand in hand. Huh? True...I may read romance novels which distorts reality sometimes but I dont believe for a moment that sex is ALWAYS meaningless. Haha...and I was so evil...and I replied...maybe you've never known love before and he was soooo ticked off. Haha...but it's true...How could he have so little faith in love? Oh yea...after a string of failed relationships...who can blame the guy? However, I'm not saying invest all your effort in it...but I'm sure it does change your life. Yeah...I know sex exists...and yes...sometimes couples can have sexual issues...but there are times when sex can mean so much. THen i asked him...if sex is just sex, why is it that it's wrong for a guy or girl in a relationship to sleep with someone else? THen he said...oh that's cheating. Oh so now you call that cheating? He then proceeded to call me selfish because a relationship is meant to be reciprocal...and a it is not a relationship if one can't reciprocate sex. Hello? There's more to relationships than just sex? Hell...if you and your so-called other half were just sleeping with each other and nothing else...then you might as well call each other bang-buddies or 'friends with benefits'. The human male will always be hornier than the female. They forget that females have the emotional aspect to deal with...emotions and the time for reality to set in...that's right...emotions...somewhat clearly lacking in the male breed of humans....actually more like consideration. Haha...there was more...but I aint going to go into too tired... But...hurling such derogatory insults and undermining my opnions aint gonna make me want to run to you and rip off all my clothes and jump straight into bed with you. Instead...I yearn to leash my fury (well not exactly because it was a good laugh as well) physically upon you. Actually it was quite funny to see how hilariously shallow and empty headed this guy was. Ha Ha. What a bad tactic to get a girl into bed! He should have wooed me with sweet tender words...wait he did and I didnt fall prey to that either. Haha! I'm proud of myself...I am. I really don't care what people think anymore...I used to give a damn about it but now I'm like screw's my life and if I wanna save my virginity for that special someone. Then bloody hell I's my virginity..NOT anyone else's. He's soooo horny. Tsk Tsk! And yeah...don't judge me when you've only known me for a few weeks or so! Bastard! I'm not one of those girls you can sweet talk to and then submit to you. I am NOT some subservient bimbo... and damn you for ridiculing my opinions! It's my life...not yours :P

Anyway...this seems like a good time for this:

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or
things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in
my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It
means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid.
It means I have the courage and strength to
allow myself to be who I truly am and won't
become anyone else's idea of what
they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there is
nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold
within me. You won't succeed. And if
that makes me a bitch, so be it.

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it !!!!

B = Babe
I = In
T = Total
C = Control of
H = Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle

And that my friends is what I am! *muakz*

Wednesday, April 21, 2004


I never knew that reading other people's blogs were so about 3 different ones. The first one belonged to a guy who managed a strip joint in US...another one was about an American woman who was teaching in Korea with v liberal views and the third belonged to a prostitute. All damn interesteing in their own ways...'s easy to forget that there are various sorts of people living out there and that their lives are just as interesting in their unique ways. Tee hEe...

Oh back in the UK. It seems different. Don't know why...I think I've only been back for 3 days...I think it's the jet lag...going to bed arounf 9 these days! So unacceptably early and waking up around 5am! the past...that would hve been my bedtime! Oh well... and am feeling v tired these days. I wonder why? Well...let's just say airplane food hasnt done me much good since i got back. I've been feeling nauseous...but I feel hungry... Today this was what I had the whole day: 4 fruit roll ups, 2 Reese Peanut Butter Cups, a can of diet coke, salmon....tht's actually a lot compared to yesterday. Yesterday i had...a mango frescatto, 1 fruit roll up, a bit of a choc tart and salmon...'s changed too.

One more essay...but I can't seem to find the will to even continue...I've only written 279 words outta 2500 words. I have absolutely NOOOOOOOO idea what I'm talking about and this bloody essay constitutes 60% of my module grade...DAMMIT! Why oh why did I bring this upon myself to come to Warwick- the place OVER-populated by intelligent people? Why am I so intellectually challenged? Why do I find it so difficult to assimilate the easiest bit of info?? I used to love legal theory but now I abhor's just become the bane of my existence! fickle i can get...Tsk Tsk...I'm ashamed of myself...I really am. BTW...does anyone know whether natural law encompasses postivism?? Gotta like plan out my essay... the question is 'How relevant is natural law to modern society?'. Since natural law spanned over thousands of years, i thought it'd be easier to discuss the main philosophers in the different periods and compare each of them, then select which I think would be most applicable to today's society, but also on the whole, evaluate the general relevance of nat. law to modern society. Am i making any sense? Oh well!

Anyway...came across this rather interesting piece...

  • I'd rather be a whore than an Academic

  • Thursday, April 08, 2004


    OMG! My trip back to KL was VERY worth it! Yup Yup!! Guess what I had for lunch (well...apart from Ma Po Tofu and Assam Fish)??? You guessed it! I had durians! Yum Yum...Ooh...the texture was soft...delectable...creamy and the TASTE!!! Whoa! I think it's better than sex!! Anyway...for those of you who don't know what durians's this fruit which is thorny and inside the green thorny fruit are yellow, soft, creamy and amazingly's as if one has reached Nirvana! Unfortunately...non-Asians find the smell utterly repugnant! Tsk Tsk! Anyway...for more info on durians go visit

  • Durians!

  • Friday, April 02, 2004

    Malaysia has not changed much

    Was watching the news on NTV7 last night. According to Thai authorities, the guilty terrorists who were allegedly respnsible for the recent terrorist bombing in a place called Gudlam (i think that's wht it was called) in Thailand had crossed the Malaysian border. The next thing you know...there's this guy who is supposedly the deputy head of the Internal Security Dept berating the Thai authorities for such a ludicrous accusation...and he goes on about how they don't have sufficient evidence to prove this...and to quote from NTV7, "Malaysia is not a haven for terrorist activities..." and there I was seated...shaking my head! Gawd...why can't they just rule that as a possibility and device a plan preparing for an event like that in case it may be true instead of procrastinating and later the real thing'll be too late and they'll be like giving PATHETIC excuses like...Oh time wasn't on our side and blah blah blah! Prevention is better than the cure! Tsk Tsk! Malaysia has not changed...

    Been thinking about taking up driving...and as usual...I've heard many stories about these corrupt driving examiners. It seems that BRIBING THE INSTRUCTOR is one of the main payments of earning your license to drive! It's become a unheard of! Well...there's this guy (who shall not be made known) who refused to bribe the idiotic a result...not only did the examiner fail him (well...tht's a forgone conclusion)... not only did he get shouted at ALL the way back to the school...but on his record...the bloody instructor wrote him off as a wreckless driver.'s difficult to pass if you don't bribe... Don't these damn examiners know that they're risking lives if you put incompetent drivers out on the road? And I can't really blame those who bribe...because...some of them don't have the resources to handle another driving test (and there's this apprehension of not passing again) if they don't bribe. Oh well...I don't think ALL examiners are like that...just the ones that I've heard of...

    Anyway....Sg Wang is still a SHOPPER'S PARADISE! is indeed a delightful place...Lot 10 is just opposite the road...Ooh...I love that part of KL! You're really spoilt for choice! Will be headed to One Utama next week...I heard that it's gigantic with sooooo many shops!!! Can't wait...and will be headed for Central Market as well...hopefully just before i leave :) Ooh! I'm definitely going to miss the shopping and the cheap prices of things in Malaysia...and definitely the food! I've put on sooooooo much weight since I've been back. I need to lose at least 10 kg! That's going to be sooooooo difficult. I've resolved to go to the gym when i get back to Warwick...whether it materialises is a different thing. From tomorrow onwards...I shall start watching what I eat and start exercising! Haha...I can see you laughing...but I will try! Wish me luck... I might start being a Bridget Jones...and keeping a diary of how much i weigh everyday! Help! I'm so utterly obese and lazy!